What do you want to be able to do

I want the confidence to not be paralyzed with fear and adrenaline should a fighting situation go down. I figure the only way to get that is hands on experience so I might as well study something specific to the situation right? As for rules that's really complicated and not only varies from prison to prison block to block and I'm sure even person to person. This isn't about me actively seeking a fight but should someone attack me I want them to immediately regret that decision.

What is your fitness and health level?

Fitness level...redditor. I'm 5'9 220lb. I have the arms and legs of a manual laborer and the gut of a beer drinker.(thought I don't actually drink) I just recently started dieting and weight training. I have no delusion about about my physical fitness directly affecting my effectiveness as a fighter. This is no doubt going to be a process and I am only just beginning. I got my medical card after I lost my insurance and could no longer get the ambion and valium I was taking for my insomnia. I make too much money to get medical and not enough to buy my own insurance. So this is my option if I want to sleep nights and you know what? It works fucking great. Haters gona hate.

What types of studios are near you? I haven't made it that far yet. I see them around town but I don't know what they are teaching.

I'll be looking into that today.

What's the legitimate risk of weapons being deployed in a prison fight? Are you concerned about that?

I'm not sure to be honest. I've never actually been to prison. I was in county jail and it's not quite the same or so I imagine. In 6 moths I didn't see a single shank though it's not the kind of thing you flash willy nilly. I think I know enough to keep my head down and not make myself a target for a stabbing. I'm not a snitch, I have no gang affiliations, I don't associate with criminals, and the type of charge I'm concerned about getting isn't the type of thing inmates are going to kill you over on principles alone. If anything everyone likes the weed guy.

What's the real likelihood of you going to jail?

Probably slim. Way to small for the federal government to waste their time and I'm in compliance with California state law. I have a lawyer picked out who I've already met with and money tucked away just for that should I need it. My father always taught me to hope for the best and prepare for the worst. Either way, it being a real threat or not doesn't make it any less of a real fear. For the most part I am a totally law abiding citizen. Seriously I don't even jaywalk. But my 6 month stay in county shook me up so bad that even now 4 years later it's something I think about every day. The weed thing is just exacerbating an existing symptom. So much so now that I have to act. I have to face this and I don't know how else to go about it. I'm sick of being afraid.