Well said. If this problem is really that bad then you need professional help. Life is all about choices man and you don't want to make a chocie you may regret.

You have to understand most of the world is a uniform place. Everybody belongs to a group and when a person belongs to a group that person has a reason to hate an opposing group. You are not a part of that herd so you will be cast out as the black sheep.

There is a silver lining to the cloud though. At the end of the day people are not necessarily bad they are just afraid of something different. I'm mixed race myself(though not as straight forward as black and white) and I moved around a lot.

I grew up in a Jamaican and Indian neighbourhood before moving to a completely white neighbourhood. Never really fitted in anywhere(though most people in Britain are quite nice so they try and assimilate you into their community and treat you as an equal but it was evident I was the odd one out).

Either way though you can be black, white, mixed race, asian, klingon none of that shit really matters. It is about how you make people feel about you and while people will judge you on apperance and race first and foremost due to it being what they see first you can change that.

It is sad we live in a world where we have to change peoples opinions of ourselves because we are of a certain race or appearance but unfortunately as long as you live in this world you have to abide by its stupid rules.

When I was in school it was a poorer area that surrounded the school and most students came from that area. The less educated and poorer areas of Britain are more susceptible to racism and that is what I ran into a lot in school.

At first I was bitter and wanted to kick their asses but after a bit I learnt they are not bad people they are just miseducated and more scared of something different than anything. They thought my existence posed a challenge to them.

In the end I ended up befriending a lot of them. A lot of white guys still used to give flack to the white girls I would date(and my year was full of attractive white girls. I dated everybody in my 5 years there) so I think blokes are pretty daft and know bugger all while women are more open minded to other races and that may be a better starting place.

Either way though don't beat yourself up be yourself. You can be black, white or klingon like I said but nobody can hate an interesting character. Don't let your colour define you and just be yourself. If people dislike you that is their problem but like I said the best thing a human being can be is interesting.

Charm and interest are something any man of any colour can wield and they both work. Rise above it and it will improve you as a person tenfold. Just know your not the first to go through this and you won't be the last. You have to be as strong as them if you want the results they had though.